new clothes

so my wonderful SIL brought me over her maternty clothes to borrow today yay thay are all so cute im gonna be the best dresses prego i know lol probbly not but a girl can dream cant she lol. there is a pair of pants that i can tell are gonna be my very fave they are caro type pants and they are superduper comfy and there is a cute denim skirt that i cant wait to wear to church its gonna be so fun to wach my belly grow into some of these things. i cant wait to get bigger but at the same time i dont especialy on fat days when i feel i just look fat and not pregnant ive been having a lot of those lately idk why everyone trys to reassure me that i dont look fat but i find it hard to belive them. im trying to be positive about it and just tell myself no sarah there really is a baby in there and its not fat its baby im just struggling i wish i was perfect so that none of this would bother me but thats just not the case so i will live with it and try my best to pretend it dosnt bother me when people say that i look big not because they are rude but because it makes me feel like a whale even though logical i know i dont look that huge.... yet