tangled up with family and having a blast!

okay so today after work i went over to my parents and they had rented tangled id never seen it and can i just say it cute! not sure i like the songs but hey the rest was way too cute. it was so fun to chill in my parents room and get all of us on the bed and watch a movie its been such a long time since we have got to do that it was the best to see my little brother gunner pay attention to the funny horse that and the fight scenes was so funny usually moves don't catch his eye but he really liked this one. i really cant wait for my baby to get here and get bigger so they can play together i know they are gonna be buds! even if its a girl ha-ha any who its a week until my next appointment and so its getting closer to finding out what it is. what team are you on team pink or team blue if you wouldn't mind would you comment on what you think it is? just for fun i promise i wont judge lol well night all

day off!

cleaning house. really not the way i would have liked to spend my day off but i really needed to do it dishes were 3 feet high ( exaggeration lol but they were pretty bad) plus laundry not fun but at least now i don't have to do them after work tomorrow ha! hopefully the rest of this week will get better and go fast so i can go to the Dr and find out what we are having I'm really getting anxious to know even though i pretty sure its a boy and I'm getting pretty happy about that ive come to terms with it and it makes me hope i am having a son i mean we wont have to sit and think of names since we already pretty much picked one and if its a girl we cant seem to find one we like or agree on not that we are talking about names seriously yet. i always felt i would need to rush and figure things out because it always seemed to me that 9 months would be long enough to get everything done. this baby has definitely made me calmer and more laid back things don't seem to phase me that would totally have me freaking out normally so that's good well its getting late so i better go watch MASH with the hubby then go to bed woo!

new clothes

so my wonderful SIL brought me over her maternty clothes to borrow today yay thay are all so cute im gonna be the best dresses prego i know lol probbly not but a girl can dream cant she lol. there is a pair of pants that i can tell are gonna be my very fave they are caro type pants and they are superduper comfy and there is a cute denim skirt that i cant wait to wear to church its gonna be so fun to wach my belly grow into some of these things. i cant wait to get bigger but at the same time i dont especialy on fat days when i feel i just look fat and not pregnant ive been having a lot of those lately idk why everyone trys to reassure me that i dont look fat but i find it hard to belive them. im trying to be positive about it and just tell myself no sarah there really is a baby in there and its not fat its baby im just struggling i wish i was perfect so that none of this would bother me but thats just not the case so i will live with it and try my best to pretend it dosnt bother me when people say that i look big not because they are rude but because it makes me feel like a whale even though logical i know i dont look that huge.... yet

just relax

woo for Sunday it was a much needed break form work i know i know my job isn't that bad and I'm luck to have it I'm still getting used to it so my body is really tired and i m trying to just wait out all this getting used to it stuff standing all day is really hard when your pregnant even when your not doing anything hard  but I'm pretty sure that its getting better at least I'm getting used to the pain its causing i pretty much just tell my self that this is not the most pain ive been in my life witch I'm sure is a lie but it works for a little while any way bah i feel like I'm complaining alot on here really things are okay! I'm done with pain is all but now maybe i can ask my Dr if there is anything he can give me or have me do to help i got my medical card in the mail the other day and I'm so happy it makes me feel so happy that we have insurance for the baby and me. also it couldn't have come at a better time since our first ultra sound is in like 2 weeks this is gonna be so cool we will get to see our little baby for the first time and I'm so excited to find out what we are having! i cant believe how fast its flying by when i first found out i felt like it was forever until August but its creeping up on me so much to do so little time to do it all in lol. so any way I'm just trying to be relaxed and not worry about things and today was a good day for that now as for tomorrow not so much : D

thank goodness for sundays

i cant wait for Sunday! i don't have to work woo! its not that my work is hard but I'm ready for a break my body is sore and i nearly passes out and work it was not good at all marking is really tuff on my body it makes my back hurt and that makes me light headed. but I'm so very thankful to have it now i posted belly bump pictures on face book but i ought to put them here too!

its getting closer! and I'm getting bigger i really cant wait to find out. And speaking of that I'm think of doing a gender reveal. this is how its done when you go to your ultra sound  you have the tech write down the gender with out telling you and seal it in an envelope then you take it to a bakery or have someone you trust bake a cake that has either pink or blue insides  then you gather everyone together and you cut the cake and that's how you find out what your having. i think is a really cute idea and more personal then being told by a complete stranger  with no one there to celebrate. its just an idea right now but i really like it i don't  if i can wait to know lol!

getting closer.

so today was a good day work went pretty fast and i work with really nice people and the work is not too hard. being on my feet for 4 hours straight is not so easy my back and legs hurts but it will get easier or so I'm told lol. I'm thinking that i need to drop my "medical friend" because she cant seem to be nice to me shes so judgemental and i think I'm done dealing with it i don't deserve it I've been nothing but a good friend to her listing to her and not saying anything mean or rude when shes been mean or just plain annoying I've given advice ive been genuinely care for her and the situations she been in and it seems like she doesn't care if I'm a good friend so I'm not caring anymore. on at lighter happier note only a few weeks left until we find out if is a boy or girl or twins lol !  i cant wait!!

first day

so today was my first day at work and it was great! it was hard and I'm in lots of pain now but it was worth it tomorrow will be better because i will only have to work 4 hours instead of 6. the baby did not really like it that i was on my feet all day it made me really sick by the end of the day and i almost threw up and my legs were shaking pretty bad but tomorrow will be better  now that i know what I'm getting into and i know what I'm suppose to do I'm gonna sleep well to night and really enjoy yoga tomorrow! well good night all
love ya

medical authority?! pfft!!

okay i have never posted twice in one day but I'm really angry and hurt. i have a friend who is going to school for medical stuff not nursing or anything but i feel like since i told her I'm pregnant she has felt like she has to be the the medical authority on everything she tells me things even when i don't want to know and she goes off on things my doctor should have done. apparently in his 30+ years of practice hes been doing all wrong. he delivered me and i got here fine. i tell her I'm not worried about it and that she should let me be the judge of my doctor that she has never met nor will she ever. it really makes me angry i love my doctor hes amazing and I've never had a problem with him. i will defend him to the death. just because my Dr doesn't do it the way she learned about or the way her doctor dose it doesn't mean that its wrong. i trust him completely. i really am upset by this and it stresses me out i want her to just let it go i don't even talk about my visits with her anymore because i cant take the flack. it makes me sick and me and the baby (babies) don't need that crap. I'm not even sure i want to be friends with this person any more she causes me more harm than i think a friend should but I'm not sure i want to not be either  it its hard for me to stop being friends with someone just because they hurt me. i know it sounds dumb, i forgive to easy sometimes and i let alot go. i tend to just let things happen over and over again even though they hurt and upset me i hate causing fights it makes me have panic attacks so i avoid it and that makes me keep people who normally would be cast aside i need to learn to get over it and stand up for myself  i find that hard to do with everyone i would rather they think they are right or make themselves feel smart or better then tell them they are wrong and to stop. i try not to worry about it but this time its not gonna go away she is unrelenting  I'm going to have to be mean at some point but i really don't want to i just want her to not talk about it. is that so much to ask to keep your nose in your own business really that's all I'm asking for! sorry for ranting i really need to get i out of my head its been bothering me for a while.

happy day!

so it seems that after a few weeks of a lot of stress everything is getting better its just amazing how you feel

 like life cant get better but you fight for it anyway and it comes out great everything is is trucking great i feel

 so so good about the direction our lives are going. i start working at DI sometime this week or next I'm not

sure and i just found out that they can help me pay for school as long as the program isn't over 3000 bucks i

cant believe that they can help me go and get something better its truly a blessing that i have been given

opportunity to better my self and in that way help my little family progress and have a stable life I'm thinking

of doing cosmetology or dental assisting both seem like super fun things that i would enjoy and could be

successful at i hope that i can do it and that i can have the support to do it

on cloud nine

hey, I'm back i think in doing purdy good at keeping things going so far its been nice to write things down especially on days like today when everything good in the world happens lol okay well to me. we finally got on medicaid!!! hurray after much confusion frustration and grief we finally can get things done! I'm feeling better about everything I'm getting more energy and and i have the will power to get things done that i felt we just too much i had a touch of depression that just made it hard to even think about doing house work i just wanted to not even get out of bed at all and i think that was because i was freaking out about how we were going to pay for this little thing but now that i can go to the doctor with out freaking out about how we are gonna pay i feel much happier and i can really start to enjoy this time and this little person growing inside of me. its feeling more real to me each and every day I'm just so thankful for a loving supportive family and my husband who has been so great.i don't think i could have  asked for a better family today has just been one of those good days where everything goes right. i even had enough energy tonight to go to the ward knitting group which was so so fun i got to spend 2 hours knitting on the baby's blanket and now I'm at the half way mark! who know i may actually get this done before he or she gets here! well here's to a amazing day love you all!


oh! p.s we have an onion baby thats about how big it is now at 18 weeks!

the most awesome day ever!

okay so to most people this will sound a little weird
today was a great day because i actually through the whole day feeling good and i got a lot done. first off i got and went to my first prenatal yoga class and can i just say I LOVE YOGA!! i felt SO good during and after the back pain i have started to feel has gone away today miracles never cease! i cant wait to go again Friday it just makes the whole day better funny how a bit of stretching helps. any way after that i went and got a state ID card and figured out what was holding up my insurance WOOO! i know to most people it doesn't seem like a lot or amazing but the mear fact that i got through the day and still had enough energy to come home and make dinner is a total shock to me usually all i want to do is crash.also i think last night i felt the baby kick so exciting. well gotta run love ya all!

oh the aggravation

OK! can i just say that trying to get insurance is the bane of my existence i don't understand why it has to me so hard or why simple things get so screwed up when to me they seem so simple and easy. i need insurance for the the baby and I'm doing everything that they tell me to but on their end they keep messing up then I'm the one who has to pay for it oh well i guess there is no point to worrying about it because there isn't much that can be done about it at least from me.
well at least on the up side we are at 18 weeks and 3 days today hurray! only a few more weeks till we find out what our little one is we will most likely find out at the beginning of April at least that's when my next appointment is but since my Dr doesn't have an ultra sound in his office we will have to go to the hospital to get it done which is like 3 blocks away from his office so not too bad. i really wish we knew now what it is so we can start planning things so far we have came up with a good boy name but girls names are fall short of the mark :( hopefully we will figure it out soon. well until next time
love you all!

about the "US"

hello everyone!
welcome to the blog lol.  i just thought that maybe i should make a post about the two of us a basic meet and greet type post if you will just so that you can know a little about us and why i decided to start a blog for us.

first off my name is Sarah Adams i am almost 22 years old (end of next month is my birthday) i  have bee married to my very best friend for 6 months now. he is the greatest he pushes me to be the best that i can be we met in jr high and we dated off and on in high school.  well that's the back story on us now for the plus one :) we are four months pregnant with our first baby we get to find out soon. we are so excited for this cute little thing to be here.