yard work

today we went to my parents house and helped my mom prepare the back yard for grass. my husband was a huge help he pulled out the bush by my sisters window and pulled out a few tree roots that were in the way then he got half of the weeds mowed down before it ran out of oil . what was i doing during all of this? babysitting my little brother he was so tired that he would hardly let me put him down usually it doesn't do anything for me to hold him but the ground is uneven and i was walking around. then i had to go to work and that was fun they thought it was my birthday i was so confused i told them it wasn't but they still wanted to celebrate late ha ha, so all of that equals to one sore Sarah! and i didn't even do any hard work. oh the joys of pregnancy!!

yet another scare on the baby front

so last night i had to go to the hospital again. i had started having mild pains at work and just thought nothing of them because... well pain happens  when your pregnant. i started to worry when the pain got worse and was there constantly i was getting bad pain and my belly was going hard like every five minutes so my mom took me to labor and delivery to see what was wrong they hooked me up to a non stress test and the nurse said that the "contractions" ( for lack of a better word) were barely making a blip on the screen. she asked me to rate my pain i said a 6 or a 7 not like bad enough that i couldn't handle it but too much pain to relax or do anything with like work so she called my Dr and he said to give me a shot to stop the contractions and some percocets she said that it might have been an irritated uterus what ever the heck that is. but i don't like those meds. i had two shots and i had major shakes for like 5 hours like i could barely hold anything i wasn't cold i just couldn't stop and the percs just kept me up till 2:30 am instead of knocking me out like she said they would. at least the pain went away and hasn't came back yet *knock on wood* all in all im so grateful that i have such a wonderful family that loves me and worries about me. and im so thankful for my wonderful husband who came to the hospital and held my hand while i got the shots and the exam to make sure i was still closed (which i was thank goodness!)
he is the best i love him so very very much!

26 weeks (and counting :))

wow this seemed so far away but now its here only a few more weeks to go before our baby is here. its been very crazy. i look like im smuggling a soccer ball under everything i wear( i must remember to take more pictures lol) and while ive still got some issues with the rapid changes happening to my body ive really started to embrace it. its all going to be worth it when our little girl comes. this truly has been a learning experience and i have learned who will really be there for me. sadly its not as many people as i had hoped but of course that's part of growing up. i am so thankful for the support i have. im grateful for my job and the people i work with they are just so good to me. i find that instead of becoming more apprehensive about all the things to come i am embracing it and facing it with little fear. here's hoping for a smooth finish love you all!

vent!

i know i try not to do this because i know that people find it annoying but im hurt and frustrated and i just need to get it out. i know that being pregnant im probably throwing things out of proportion and possible being a little immature  about the way i feel.
im hurt that not one of my friends have offered to throw me a baby shower. i know that i probably shouldn't be upset by this but i am it makes me feel like they really don't care about me or aren't excited for me at all i try to tell my self its not true but don't actions speak louder than words? i would jump at the chance to give any of these ladies a baby shower. i feel bad that i didn't have the finances to offer to throw one for my SIL and i will be doing on for my best friend Amanda. i just want to have a get together with my friends and celebrate this baby and catch up. i know that the family will throw me one but i really find it hard to ask them to add another 28 people on to the guest list when its already 40+ with just family. my sister in law said she would do it but she really doesn't have the money to and i feel really bad that she would be the one doing it i don't want to put her in a financial bind. im irritated i probably have no right to be. according to baby shower etiquette, the moms and or me are not suppose to be throwing the showers so if we were going off of that i wouldn't get one. im really not sure why it bugs me so bad i used to not care if my friends were there for me or not it makes no sense to me that it hurts now and its not just the shower thing i hardly talk to anyone now or i feel like when i do talk to a friend they're not really listening and that just makes me feel like im burdening them by making them talk to me. i get that our lives are changing and we are all doing different things college, getting married, even have kids of our own. so i know that some of them cant really understand what im going through and i don't expect them to. i just need support a text here or there a phone call, a visit. heck if you wanted to send me a letter I'd take it lol.
im not posting this for sympathy or to guilt trip anybody into throwing me a shower i just need to get this off my chest and writing it helps it not bother me as much i can write it and let go.i hope i don't hurt anyone's feelings by writing this. i needed to get my frustrations out so i don't implode from not being able to talk about it to anyone. i cant talk to my husband about it because he says its silly to depend on friends and want to hang out with them. and sometimes i agree maybe this is one of those times anyways i  cant talk to him about how im feeling so i vent to my blog about it because i don't want to hurt anyone by talking to them about it. i feel like if i vented to any one friend they would feel like i was pressuring them into it and that's not what i want. im really hurt right now more then likely unjustly so but none the less i am.

passed the test!

yay i passed my glucose test! my last score was 124 only about 4 points over normal so everything should be okay. it really wasn't a fun experience. i had to drink a whole bottle of lemon lime drink which was gross i hate flat soda. then i had to get my finger pricked 4 times its still very sore i also had to get a urinalysis done because i told my Dr that i had so cramping the night before so he wanted to check luckily that came back as nothing. then after all that stuff was done my mom, my aunt Maggie and i went to target to register for my little girl that was so much fun there is so much to choose and the stuff there is super cute!! i cant wait for July to get here so we can have baby showers!

first mothers day!

today was my first mothers day. on our way out to go to church my hubby showed me they flower planter type box he bought me its really pretty then after sacrament meeting all the young men/ women hand out CD to all the moms ( every women over 18)  its church music but it has alot of my favorite songs hubby was hoping there was chocolate involved so he could steal it lol now im just relaxing its been a pretty nice day!

oh how complicated!

so i went to the doctor on Monday for my OB appointment  and when my Dr came in he said that my blood type is A- and that i  would need to get a  RhoGAM shot. i asked him what a RhoGAM shot is and he said its a shot to stop you from forming harmful anti bodies because your Rh negative. he gave me a book that had some info on it. and from what i read. being Rh negative is sorta rare only 15 percent of the population is Rh- and what that means is that i don't have the Rh protein on my red blood cells it doesn't effect anything except pregnancy if you partner is Rh positive. if you or both positive or both negative the baby will be fine but if you differ from each other then you have to get a shot because its possible that the baby and your blood aren't compatible and your cells will attack it and causes anemia, bleeding on the brain or even death. thankfully those complications are rare because of the shot and even more rare because this is my first pregnancy and the baby and my blood have not had a chance to mix yet. but in my other pregnancies i will have to get the shot at 12 weeks because there will be antibodies left over from the first one and they cant do harm it gets more dangerous with each one. well enough about that. yesterday i had to take the 1 hour glucose test and i FAILED! my blood sugar was 148 my Dr said that's a bit too high for his liking. so now i have to do the three hour test no thanks! im going to have my finger pricked three more times. i bruise so easily that i can barely use the finger that they poked yesterday. i cant even imagine having to give my self shots i hate needles and i hate that they bruise me so bad. well here's hoping that everything will be okay!